Wow, it has been over a week since returning home from our anniversary vacation, and I am swamped! I feel like I am literally trying to juggle 20 different spinning plates right now and any minute they are all going to come crashing down. I probably should not even be typing this message right now because my real job (the one that pays me to work 3 days/week) has several pressing deadlines staring me in the face. Oh well, I loaded up on caffeine in preparation for a late night and early morning. I need to vent for 20 minutes on this blog and then I will be able to tackle those work projects.
Coming home from vacation was bittersweet. We were actually ready to leave Florida because we were dying to see the kids. They made us a “welcome home” sign and showered us with hugs and kisses upon our return. Noah, my baby, was especially clingy and maybe just a little traumatized from our absence, but he is coping (and I am coping with my mommy guilt about leaving him). While we were thrilled to be back with our children, we were not ready to leave the relaxation and stress-free days of vacation. I was doing pretty well sticking to a diet (I still need to lose 10 pounds or so that I have kept on since my 3 pregnancies and kids) and surviving on 6-7 hours of sleep a night. However, my body got spoiled on vacation and got used to at least 2 delicious meals a day (in addition to dessert) and 9-10 hours of sleep. Needless to say, my body and mind have been fighting to get readjusted to a more deprived state and are not happy about it. Coming home also meant coming home to our insane schedule. Here is a little taste of our last week since returning home:
Wednesday: Back to work for me, kids at home with Les for part of day and Nanny part of the day. Jacob had 1/2 day at school. No school for Bella.
Thursday: I worked ALL day – left at 7 AM and did not get home until after 10 PM. This sucked even more since I usually don’t work on Thursdays. I switched my days around since I had a few presentations I was responsible for on this day. Jacob had his last day of school. Les did the speech drive with Jacob and brought Isabella along for the drive. Nanny stayed with Noah during speech. Les (super dad) did dinner, bath, and bed routine.
Friday: I was off, but Les had to work all day. Packed tons of kid gear for a big day in Virginia Beach. Took kids to VB for 11 AM speech. After speech, we picked up my dad, got smoothies for lunch, and took Noah for his first haircut. Dropped my dad off, went to my in-laws house for naps for boys and to celebrate father-in-law’s retirement (Les met us in VB after work). Late night for kids.
Saturday: Needed household supplies – groceries, home depot stuff, craft supplies, and Father’s Day gifts. Schlepped kids to multiple stores, went to Chick-Fil-A for lunch and playtime. Les went to work at 2 PM, and I did afternoon and evening routine with kids on my own.
Sunday: Big Day – Father’s Day! Gave Les father’s day presents and we took a family trip to Super Wal-Mart for MORE groceries and supplies that we did not get Saturday. Had all of husband’s family over and made Father’s Day brunch. Cleaned up and helped Isabella and cousins organize a lemonade stand. Prepared food for my family to come over for Father’s Day BBQ. After the BBQ, Les and I left to go to a Dave Matthews concert (self-imposed craziness, I know, but totally worth it). My parents did bath and bedtime with kids.
Monday: Les worked. I was off because I am working Thursday again this week. Took Isabella to camp at Virginia Living Museum. Took boys to museum and for a walk. Had one of Isabella’s friends from camp over for a playdate and helped them with some craft projects while boys napped. Packed up stuff for a late afternoon outing to Busch Gardens (we have season passes and love being able to go for just a few hours). When Les got home from work, we went to the amusement park for 4 hours and put the kids to bed a little later than usual. Les and I stayed up late pre-cleaning the house because we were having a cleaning person come the next day.
Tuesday: Work day for me. Les has to sleep during day because he starts working the overnight shift tonight = the beginning of a crazy few days ahead where we won’t see each other much. My to-do list is a mile long – work to do for my job in preparation for my meeting, Jacob b-day invitations to mail, more grocery shopping, bills to pay, birthday gifts to buy, and another trip to get ready for over the 4th of July.
Wednesday: Les sleeps and goes right to work when he wakes up because he has a meeting before his shift. I will be gone all day and evening because I have a big work meeting. The nanny will be with the kids all day and my parents will do dinner/bath/bed. I will come home at 10 so my parents can go home. I should be staying at the hotel where my meeting is, but I have no one to be home with the kids since Les is working overnight so my boss said I could stay the night at home as long as I am back bright and early.
Thursday: Out the door as soon as nanny arrives and at my meeting all day. Finally home Thursday evening, but Les still working two more nights so we won’t see him until Saturday.
Friday: A nice long day spending time with my kids – finally! Lots of stuff to do, but probably won’t do anything except play and snuggle my kiddos.
So….. this is my life. I know it is not much different from anyone else’s crazy life, but it mine and most days it feels like I am just trying to survive. I have many moments during weeks like this where I really question whether I am making the right choice to work outside the home, away from my kids. These busy work weeks make the balance seem very off and make me feel like my priorities are not quite aligned. I also don’t have any time for the things I really do enjoy, like blogging! I have started 5 different posts – my Fifty Shades of Grey review, Cancer Recap, Father’s Day post, my take on the attachment parenting debate, and my synopsis of the Lance Armstrong investigation and the sham that it is. This is the good stuff I really want to be working on, along with planning Jacob’s birthday, catching up on scrapbooks, organizing my office, finally getting my finances and bills in some sort of order, and just spending more quality and consistent time with my children. I know it will settle down and the balance will shift back soon. It usually does, at least long enough for me to decide to keep up this balancing act of working in and outside the home a little while longer. I just need to get through this week. I need to look forward to a great 4th of July vacation with family and friends. I need to stop writing and get to my work so I can maybe get 5 hours of sleep tonight. I need to take a few deep breaths and move forward with the tasks at hand.
Hang in there with me as I get through this week. I will finish those posts I mentioned soon and probably start several more that take me too long to finish. I would like to promise that I will be a consistent blogger, but I am just trying to do the best that I can managing the other very important plates that are spinning out of control at the moment. Once I get those under control, my fun side project of blogging can resume.